you only live once.

yes its the end of the month already! Two more weeks till i start uni! Excited and nervous at the same time :S Excited because its a new environment, nervous because its a new environment. okay that didn't make sense but yeah you get my point right?

This also means I'd have to finish up my personal statement in 2 weeks or so D: Ideas ideas! I need them ideas :( Don't wanna be stressed up with it while I'm prepping for my finals :O

Well, I've dedicated this to God and my entire education to Him as well. What I can do now is pray and have faith and trust in the Lord. He will be my guide. :)

anyways,

read yesterday's newspaper and it says that it'll be easier for Malaysian students to obtain a visa!

Addicted to GD's crayon :O the beats are mind blowing! :3

that's it for now!

au revoir.

Yours Truly,
Jeremy

p.s.-swag.

Finally free to update my blog. Well, I ~~mentally~~ wrote a whole list of ideas to blog about but unfortunately, yours truly has totally forgot about that list. Dang it! DON'T WORRY! I think I have something to blog about tonight :) remind me if I start telling grandfather stories aite?

Been quite busy with my UCAS application and all. The ~~pain in the arse~~ Personal Statement has been giving me unnecessary stress the past couple days and the best part, I have not even start on my first draft. -.- Some of you would say "EASY LAH" "just write about yourself" "very fast finish wan". DUDE it's not easy for me :( Been cracking my head day and night and honestly, I think I lost my writing mojo. Back in school during Pn Loh's English lessons, could easily write a 6 page essay no problem whatsoever. NOW, can hardly write half a page -.- at times like this when all hope is lost, when everything seems impossible, there's only ONE person who can save me right now. Yes, its my Jesus, my Saviour. However there is still a "BUT". Have not touch my personal these past 2 days. I prayed for ideas, but my mind's still empty. Was on the verge of giving up, until Daniel suddenly sent me a message on facebook. He shared some links with me which could help me with my personal statements. True enough I did not get a direct respond from God eg, an audible voice inside my head / messenger from heaven / thunder strike in front of me / etc etc. He spoke through Daniel instead! Funny how God works eh? :) Nevertheless, I am eternally grateful that The Lord is always with me everywhere and anywhere I go. Thank You Lord!

and, The Personal Statement is still at draft 0. Shall nor worry for I know God will see me through this. He has brought me here, he will bring me out. In one piece. Shall surrender my all to You, Lord Jesus. I know You will provide for me. What I can do know is pray and hope and have faith in You O Lord.

On a totally unrelated note,

Its been a while since you left. ~~5 days~~ Well, obviously I miss you, but it seems like you're not. Honestly, I think I should not have written that letter, but then again its too late right? Aaaaanyhoo, that letter wasn't a confession letter. It was just another letter. Just a letter. Just a letter. Just a stupid letter.

To be honest, yes, I have feelings for you and NO I do not want to start anything.

Reasons why I don't/can't want to start anything:
1. its too soon.
2. you'll be miles away.
3. people change.
4. father-zoned. ~~there's no escaping that.~~
5. I don't know.

Yes you heard me. I just wish things would just stay like this as in how it was before that letter.
I hope we're still close friends. That's all I want right now. Close friends, nothing more.

You're a smart girl and I'm sure you already know about this. But its not what you think it is. No seriously, its not.

Maybe you're busy or something, but really hope you'll reply my messages. :( ~~i sound damn desperate wtf~~

No. I am not desperate. I'm just hoping. cause that's pretty much all i can do right now.

When you said those words before leaving, I don't know who and what it means.

Maybe you meant something else? but i guess i took the literal meaning. Word for word. </3

and NO, I am not blaming you. You DID NOT hurt me. and I'm being serious. You didn't do anything.

I should move on.

Wrong timing lah. ~~potong stim.~~

Simple Plan's Jet lag would describe how I feel now. Not the whole song la, part of it, but you get my point right? Seriously, what time is it where you are? :3

I heard is cold there. How are you coping? How's the food? How are the people there? Got your essentials yet? prepared for winter?

Been wanting to ask you all this but I feel like I'm bugging you and being nosy and all. So yeah, maybe I shouldn't.

It's not that I'm being nosy, but I just want to know how is it over there. Then maybe I'd know what to expect IF I go there.

Just have to say this one more time, I miss you. From a close friend/buddy/so-called father point of view. no hidden meaning whatsoever. really.

On ANOTHER totally unrelated note, like really not related to anything above.

Some people are just so stubborn. I mean, tell you things for you own good. I get scolded. -.- You say I never listen, YOU NEVER ALSO ALRIGHT. and yes, I admit at some point I may be stubborn but I do listen to advice.

I know you reading this.

So my advice to you, let go. move one. That's my last and only advice. Your choice to follow or ignore.

Anyhoo, weekends are coming! and the month of September would be coming to an end. Le sigh. Time sure flies when you're having a ball! Friends flying too! but that's besides my point. September has been an awesome month. Lotsa things happened this month, Ups and downs, mostly ups but yeah, twas a good month! I hope October would be as good or better than September.

Here's to a great month in October! *cheers*

Here's to an awesome University life! *cheers*

Here's to an excellent Personal Statement! *cheers*

Here's to hopefully an Unconditional offer! *cheers*

Goodness me, I didn't realise I've been blogging such a long post! :O could it be that my writing mojo is back?????? :O this post is as long as a personal statement -.- yes I think the mojo is back! I think. I hope.

Shall try my luck in drafting my first draft when I wake up.

Well be going back to MCKL in a few hours for CF with the buddies! How I miss CF! :(

oh and I went back to MBS to take my certs, Pn Khaw said my complexion was better last time :( must be the messed up body clock. le sigh. shall buy facial masks, pimple cream etc etc. and not to mention enough sleep too! and sleeping early too haha.

It's getting late, and my brain has churned out enough blab for the night. It deserves a good rest.

till the next post!

au revoir.

yours truly,
Jeremy

p.s.- my body clock is so messed up.